Hidfh Diary

Life Update!

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful

Finished another Juz with my teacher. Alhamdulillah.

This is the most consistent, that I have been with a teacher on this journey, and it feels different this time — quieter, steadier.

Somehow, in my mind, I heard fireworks going off. My heart waited for that moment, for her to pause, smile, maybe even say how proud she was. In fact, I could already taste the zobo I was going to drink at the party that I was going to have.

She just turned the page and said, “Read.”

And I did.

Something about that moment sat deeply with me. Maybe that’s the lesson here. The journey doesn’t stop for applause. Memorizing the Qur’an isn’t a performance. It is a process, not a finish line. It is not the confetti, the congratulations, or the applause I sometimes crave. It is the quiet work of surrender, the kind that humbles you, reshapes you, and invites you to keep showing up even when no one sees, especially when no one sees.

Alhamdulillah for teachers who guide with simplicity, for the difficulty and the ease, and for a Lord that is Ash-Shakur. Please allow us to do only for your sake, Ya Rabb.

رَبَّنَا تَقَبَّلْ مِنَّآ ۖ إِنَّكَ أَنتَ ٱلسَّمِيعُ ٱلْعَلِيمُ

“Our Lord, accept [this] from us. Indeed, You are the Hearing, the Knowing.”

Dear Sisters,

Please keep me in your du'a.